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July 2011
Gloria's show was SOO fun. I loved talking to the staff and screening people.
Thanks so much! <3
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Keep in mind that we will have a collab channel out as soon as we can with skits and vlogs.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
So, my WHOLE family doesn't believe that I can follow my dream.
I’ll show ‘em.
Ask me questions and I will ask some back. (unless you are anon)
All I wear are hoodies, jeans, and a hat.
I need a job.
I remember last time I overcame my anxiety, I just hung out with my best friends.
That was one of the only times that I felt important. Like they actually wanted me there.
Now, it’s just like I bring everyone down because I am just so god damn stressed that I am thinking about my future every single minute of the day.
Now I’m just trying to bring myself out of it, and it is not working as I planned. I have just been overcome by trying to not be a failure in the future, trying to make everyone happy, and trying to be the best friend I can be. None are working out.
I’m trying, believe me. I just need to focus on something other than that.
P.S: I’m sorry for all the ranting posts lately.
I'm scared shitless and I don't know what to do.
I am so afraid that I will never reach my goals in life.
That I will never get to live my dream and I will amount to nothing.
My worst nightmare.
Whenever I talk about what I want to do when I'm older with my parents, they make it seem like it will never happen.
My parents think I smoke because I came back from a walk smelling like smoke. My whole street smokes. Trust me, if I wanted to smoke, I wouldn't have waited until just now to start.
If only all workouts could be underwater.
I think I need to buy stuff for my hair. I’m going to be in the pool alot.
FINALLY going to sleep. Leave me any good questions or just random stuff if you like. :3
G’night guys! <3
OUT OF WHOEVER REBLOGS THIS BY THE TIME I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WILL HAVE A CHANCE OF GETTING SOLO PROMOTED!!!
* will pick the moment i get up!
* will be selecting 1 blog randomly
* no likes, reblog once & must be following me:
http://c-r-a-c-k-e-d.tumblr.com
i check :)
* gogogogogogogo & goodnight!
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Wake up. Be annoyed that you still exist. Force yourself to move. Avoid mirror. Make yourself look half-decent. Don’t check the mirror. Catch a glimpse in the mirror. Want to rip off your face. Go to school. Fake smiles. Fake a laugh. Look happy. Think about dying. Feel lonely, worthless, isolated, ugly, fat, disgusting, tired, stupid, not good enough, empty, numb, pain. Go back to your room. Lock door. Close curtains. Avoid mirrors. Think about dying. Feel lonely, worthless, isolated, ugly, fat, disgusting, tired, stupid, not good enough, empty, numb, pain. See friends. “Are you ok?” “I’m fine”. Act normal. Back to room. Lock door. Think about dying. Feel lonely, worthless, isolated, ugly, fat, disgusting, tired, stupid, not good enough, empty, numb, pain. Get out the razor. Cut. Cry. Patch yourself up. Into bed. Try to sleep. Can’t sleep. Think about dying. Feel lonely, worthless, isolated, ugly, fat, disgusting, tired, stupid, not good enough, empty, numb, pain. Cry yourself to sleep. Wake up. Cycle begins again..
Reblog this if you'd care if I killed myself.
